Holy Crap!

Holy crap I'm moving to Paris!  Yes, it's true...well it's true as long as I can manage to get my shit together!  I've applied and have been accepted to Grad School at The American University of Paris.  For some reason, must be insanity, I will be attempting to earn a Masters of Arts in Global Communication.  WTF???  Yes, i am for sure insane!  OK, obviously they wouldn't have accepted me if I didn't at least meet the requirements.  But still...what!?!  OK, calm down.  I freak myself out at least once a day.  I go from excited to scared to nervous to completely loosing it all in the span of a day, every day.  

I have already put in my notice at work and have started training someone.  I've found that it's hard to teach someone in one week what you have learned over the span of 7 years.  I've been a Promotions Coordinator for 7 freaking years!  How do you teach that to someone?  I feel bad for the guy.  He's never going to be able to "be me" in the 2 months i have to train him.  And already people have said to me, in front of him, that I have been the best in this position that they've had.  Which is awesome, for me...not so much for him.  I will try my best to teach him as much as I can but some things you just can't teach.  I can't teach him grammar and spelling and sentence structure.  He needs to come in with those skills.  So if he can't master that, he could be in trouble.  Regardless, I will try my best to shove as much information as I can down his throat (in a good way!) before I leave. 

My last day will be December 11Th and the following day is my citizenship ceremony.  After that, I pack up all my stuff and move it to my parent's house in LA.  I'll spend the holidays with the family and then I fly out on January 9Th and arrive in Paris on January 10Th.  2009 will be a very interesting year!  I will be LIVING in PARIS!!  That's still so unreal to me.  I hope it really sinks in soon.  

Anyways, I've got a ton of preparing to do before I can go.  I have to get this confirmation letter from CampusFrance, which cost me $120 by the way!  Then I have to get my student Visa from the French Consulate in LA, buy my plane ticket to Paris, pack, move...etc etc etc!!!!

The hardest part will be saying goodbye.  Some people I will probably never see again.  I probably won't come back to San Diego when I'm done.  Unless I find an amazing job here then I would come back.  The only reason to come back is to see The Bruckels.  And who knows, by then they may have made their move to the Pacific Northwest like they want to.  I don't know what my future holds.  I really have no clue, no idea!  I just hope this move to Paris for Grad School really will be worth it.  I NEED to do bigger things with my life.  I'm not dating, I'm not married and I have no kids.  At the rate that I'm going I may never have those things, so what's left for me?  A career I suppose.  Well it's time to make that career happen!  I'm 29, it's time to be more and have more.  Would I rather have a family right now as opposed to going to school...sure I would...but I don't so this is the next best thing.

On a sort of similar note...have you ever met someone, known them for a while and just known that they are the one person you want to be with?  But you've never dated that person, you just know.  And what if you're leaving and may never come back, do you risk not staying in touch with that person by confessing your feelings before you leave?  There's a possibility that you will stay in touch with this person, mainly via email or myspace/facebook so you don't want to risk making things awkward and then loosing whatever chance at maintaining communication with this person.  On the other hand however, you would give anything to know if they even remotely thought of you "that" way.  What would you do?